Leslie Jordan Made Me Believe In My Own Gay Future

Leslie Jordan Made Me Believe In My Own Gay Future

How might Leslie Jordan have ever been closeted? Simply take a look at him. Simply take heed to him. If he was ever within the closet, it’s the identical closet that Liberace and Paul Lynde frolicked within the ’60s and ’70s — a closet with no door and a shiny, flashing, neon signal above the doorway that claims, “LE CLOSÉT.” What I’m getting at is that, within the gut-punch of feelings that pummel my mind after studying information that I can’t even carry myself to kind out, the one solace I can discover is that this: thank god Leslie Jordan was homosexual, out, and publicly proud for actually so long as I can keep in mind.

There are going to be loads of items about Leslie Jordan’s work. That may be different websites, different writers, different items. I can solely consider what Leslie Jordan feels wish to me, particularly to me, and pray that there’s universality within the specificity. As a result of for me, Leslie Jordan felt like me — an idealized model of myself on the market on this planet, residing his finest rattling homosexual life. He was the very, very uncommon occasion of a homosexual man who was allowed to age in public, allowed to maintain his livelihood and life when so, so, so lots of his queer siblings had been taken far too quickly.

That is why it’s so vital that Leslie Jordan was so out, so homosexual, so pink and purple, and in addition so very a lot a person in his 60s. Simply by being himself, all filthy wit and ebullient attraction draped in a sport coat made from a cloth that you simply simply know solely has intercourse with different materials of the identical gender, Leslie Jordan spent a long time as actually residing proof that there’s a fabulous future for homosexual males… and for me.

I’m brief, homosexual, and from Tennessee. I’ve to think about that Leslie Jordan and I had been geographically two hours away for a complete lotta time. We could have each been in Chattanooga on the identical time! I do know the place he comes from as a result of it’s the place I come from — and Leslie Jordan by no means hid the place he got here from, seemingly as a result of he couldn’t. That Tennessee twang was unmistakeable, one thing he couldn’t — or perhaps simply wouldn’t — shake for any function he took. And lordy, did Leslie Jordan tackle roles.

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I keep in mind him popping up in all places all through my sitcom-obsessed childhood. There he was on Hearts Afire, Coach, Wings, Caroline within the Metropolis, Dharma and Greg, this tiny southern spitfire with a drawl and a particular twinkle in his eye and spring in his step. Even when enjoying characters who weren’t homosexual, Leslie Jordan was at all times enjoying homosexual, y’know? To consider that, the bravery to be unapologetically your self, to know that you simply kinda need to be your self it doesn’t matter what as a result of it’s actually arduous to cross, I can’t think about it. It’s a bravery my homosexual forefathers needed to discover for themselves, and thank god Leslie Jordan discovered it — and thank god Leslie Jordan lived lengthy sufficient to share that bravery with the world and with my era (and the generations following me).

With a dearth of homosexual function fashions to look as much as once I was actually confused and questioning, thank god I had Leslie Jordan reside on my tv — a sterling instance of what it means to be southern and guh-guh-guh-gay. I see him and I see myself. There I’m posing with beefcakes in speedos at a drag queen motel in Palm Springs. There I’m, instructing drag queens a 3rd my age how one can land a punchline. There I’m, performing in drag as Miss Child Wipes. There I’m, doing a meandering and endearing Insta reside within the thick of the pandemic that at all times begins with “effectively… shit.” There I’m there I’m, there I’m…

So the place am I now with out the opportunity of seeing Leslie Jordan on TV once more? I’m not able to be my very own Leslie Jordan. However Leslie Jordan was courageous sufficient to be himself, and love and success and acclaim got here to him. I’ve had life classes — okay, filthy life classes involving a number of innuendo — from a homosexual icon who was proudly a homosexual icon. He didn’t die within the closet. Leslie Jordan could have been a brief king, however his persona — and now his legacy — was too tall to cover.

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